°valentine°

2011-05-01T09:23:00.001-07:00

So you no longer want anything to do with me. just because i wont resist having sex with other girls from now on ? saying your not worth enough for me to resist ? well.. that one simple statement hurts alot more then you think it did ... you want to say that? well then ... what was i worth to you ? when you did what you did while we were together ? obviously not very much

2011-04-26T11:34:00.000-07:00

i regret the way it ended. but i loved everything else along the way. the good, the bad EVERYTHING with you

2011-04-20T05:42:00.001-07:00

hes drifting because you are

selfless

2011-04-14T10:38:00.001-07:00

i would do it all

2011-04-11T18:26:00.000-07:00

wow ... its kind of weird to think ... that i love you so much that it doesn't matter if you got pregnant and i had to take care of him/her and be the dad :O

2011-04-06T09:15:00.000-07:00

i Can't Really Explain It
i'm So Into You Now
i Wanna Be More Than A Friend To You Now
when They Ask, I Mention My Babygirl In The Interviews Now
and I Don't Bring The Problems From The 90s And The 2 Thou
theres No Reason To Have A Friend Or Two Now
cuz The Kids Ready To Tell You How He Feel And A Few Vows
maybe I Speak In General Now
but Girl, Imma Do Whatever Just To Keep A Grin On U Now
where I Roll, They Wear Bikinis In The Winter Too Now
what You Think About Tan Lines On The Skin Of You Now?
why Wouldn't I Wanna Spend A Few Thou
on Fifth Ave, Shopping Sprees And Them Dinners To Chow
i Aint Concerned With Other Men With You Now
as Long As When I Slide Up In You, You Growl
and Any Dude With You, He Better Be A King To You Now
and I Aint Jealous, It's The Principle Now
i'm So Into You

i Really Like What You've Done To Me
i Can't Really Explain It

come On Ma
it's More Than A Flashing
i Woulda Traded It All In Orderly Fashion
my Billa In Florida We Crashing
just Off The Shore So You Can Hear When The Water Be Splashing
the Drop Top 3 In The Quota We Dashing
flawless Diamonds In The Water We Flashing
the Money We Oughta Be Stashing
i Make Sure Ever Quarter Be Cashed In

i Can't Really Explain It
my Friends Be Thinking I'm Slipping
these Girls Be Thinking I'm Tripping
what Kinda Weed U Be Smoking
what Typa Drinks U Be Sipping
sweet Thing Just To Think Of You Dipping
would Have Me With The Blue So Hard
you Would Think I Was Crimping
now You Relaxing In The Benz
credit Cards Are No Limits
so U Don't Worry About Maxing When U Spends
but Since U Been Asking About The Friends
how'd U Like It If Both Our Names Had Jackson On The Ends

i Really Like What You've Done To Me
i Can't Really Explain It

i Don't Wanna Trip, But The Truth Is
girl The Way You Cook A Steak
remind Me Of Them Trips To Roofchris
u Love My Smile, No Matter How Chipped My Tooth Is
with You It Aint Because My Whips Is Ruthless
so Sit On Chrome, Dip The Deuces
and You Aint Flattered By Canary's And Vs Dip Tay Seuces
all The Ballers Look Dumb When They Press You
five And Sixes, You Don't Let Them Kinda #'s Impress You
even Though I Was So Unsuccessful
being A Player Was Becoming Too Stressful
but Ever Since, This Superwoman Has Come To My Rescue
my Winter's Been Wonderful, My Summer's Been Special
that's Why The Same Bar While The Villa Been Painted
just So We Can Really Get Acquainted
the Love Is Real, There's No Way You Can Feel Like It's Tainted
but I Can't Really Explain It, Yeah

i Really Like What You've Done To Me
i Can't Really Explain It

2011-04-04T15:51:00.000-07:00

I see you standing here
But you're so far away
Starving for your attention
You don't even know my name

You're going through so much
But I know that I could be the one to hold you

[Chorus:]
Every single day
I find it hard to say
I could be yours alone
You will see someday
That all along the way
I was yours to hold
I was yours to hold

I see you walking by
Your hair always hiding your face
I wonder why you've been hurting
I wish I had some way to say

You're going through so much
Don't you know that I will be the one to hold you

[Bridge:]
I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
You should know
I'm ready when you're ready for me
And I'm waiting for the right time
For the day I catch your eye
To let you know
That I'm yours to hold

[Altro:]
I'm stretching but you're just out of reach
I'm ready when you're ready for me

yours to hold

2011-04-04T15:47:00.001-07:00

your not happy and its my fault.
im not happy without you.
you will always be here in my heart.
i cant give my heart and body to anybody else.
my heart and body is no longer mine to give.
they belong to you and always will.

i am sorry. i am sorry... i am sorry oh so very sorry

your lock of hair still smells like you my cupboard smells like you ...
i walk through town and i remember the places we used to go ..
everywhere .. has a part of you and i will cherish these memories forever ...
i will cherish the love we shared for now and forever more...there is true beauty in this world and i will never forget ... i will never forget... nobody can be you .. nobody else can be the one .. because ive already given you that title .. and i cant take it back because my heart is yours forever

Self destruction at it's best

2011-04-02T10:12:00.001-07:00

It's me ... Throwing away everything I've ever worked for

Untitled

2011-04-01T00:39:00.001-07:00

The aim for going to Sydney in the first place was to start a new life ... New starts no problems .... Everything begins anew ... But I quickly realized my happiness was not because of my surroundings ... My problems don't disappear .. The problems came from myself no matter where I went the problems were still the same until I realized it came from me ... And I had to try and solve it myself and I didn't manage to for a long time ... I just never managed to really be happy until I fixed myself and what I was doing

Oh .. Oh.. I see

2011-03-31T15:28:00.001-07:00

I've seen it all before... I've seen and heard a million times before - what you claim to know and think to feel .. This 'joy' you feel it's not real this love you feel - how much do you believe it...when your hardly ever happy anymore ... But it's ok ... It's what you think you want.. So why not ~~~ and then on a side note I hate how people will DECIDE to 'understand' you when they don't ACTUALLY understand shit and they make you explain it so many times... And they have a pre conceived fucking answer to my problems when they don't understand in the first place about what I'm really feeling... If you don't understand don't pretend ... It pisses me off - oh btw ... All these stories I I've been telling you recently .. And you claim to have heard them before ? You haven't actually ... Maybe someone else told them before me ... But not me

Our nights

2011-03-30T00:33:00.001-07:00

I'm wide awake and you look perfect next to me... And this photograph I look so deep sometimes I hear you breath ... I'm here alone trying to hang onto my soul but the distance takes it's toll you know ... You know .

Our nights

2011-03-30T00:32:00.001-07:00

Love

2011-03-29T16:20:00.001-07:00

My love is a burning consuming fire just waiting to turn your tears into roses
To set your body on fire and make you into crimson roses

Outcomes

2011-03-29T16:15:00.001-07:00

That's what happens when you lie and hide things from someone. That's what happens when you let yourself do whatever you like no matter the cost to someone else ... You hurt them ... And you don't understand why ... And because you don't understand you get angry ... And when your angry and sad there will always be someone there trying to get you... Because humans are animals too ... We sense weakness in the bonds of people and we jump at every chance to get what we want

Young blood

2011-03-29T16:11:00.001-07:00

You may be older then me ... But your still so young when it comes to crunch time

Won't matter to me

2011-03-28T05:53:00.001-07:00

I have realized that everything that has happened to you will have changed you.. And you will never really heal and go back to the bri I first met ... But neither will I ever want you to ... No matter what happens i still love you ... Even if you turn into an evil crazy bitch who wants to kill people ... In my eyes that is what perfect will mean ...

Don't be afraid

2011-03-27T15:59:00.001-07:00

If you ever feel like you still love me ... Do not feel obliged to stay with him. If you want to be with me again then come back. You say the pain is never far from the surface.. I'm not saying it will be easy... Life is not easy. But to remove the pain we need to work through it instead of trying to move on when we know we love each other too much.

Originality

2011-03-26T09:53:00.001-07:00

So ... The man he is afraid .. Fickle, constantly changing direction in his life, never knowing which way to go . He moves left .. He moves right he sleeps with her and her sister and her mother ... He is constantly afraid .. He is dying growing old and bleeding.. He is lying on the floor blood gushing from his side with mere moments to live and regrets in his heart ... And the woman ... The woman is in love with him and Just could never have him ... Oh no she could never have him ... I would much rather be the man

Life

2011-03-26T09:50:00.001-07:00

This is the end ...Goodbye .. The lights are turning off and the curtains are closing it's time for my exit .. All I do is cause pain anyway

Life

2011-03-26T09:34:00.001-07:00

This is the end ...Goodbye .. The lights are turning off and the curtains are closing it's time for my exit .. All I do is cause pain anyway

The same answer

2011-03-23T12:15:00.001-07:00

I reply with the same line everynight ... I tell him ... Whatever it takes and he laughs

Explosive

2011-03-23T08:51:00.001-07:00

Im destroying things ... I'm self destructing ... Pushing away everyone who cares for me and they don't know why ... But it's fine I can do this all on my own

Mother dearest

2011-03-21T09:30:00.001-07:00

.... I need someone tonight ... I need someone to be with me tomorrow

2011-03-20T23:03:00.001-07:00

when i found out you had lied to me i held you to sleep and i wiped your tears...
when he found out you lied ... where did he go ?

Who am I ?

2011-03-20T11:39:00.001-07:00

I prayed for you tonight ... And I asked god to ease your pain ... And to help guide you to where you want to go and what you want to do with your life ... I have never found a reason to pray ... I didn't even pray for myself ... Or for you to come back to me ... I just prayed for god to guide you and take care of you ... And to ease the pain much of which is caused by me ... Oh too much is caused by me... I cried ... I cried so much as I prayed ... In crying and the tears are dropping onto my phone screen as I type .... Oh the pain I've caused ... The pain i caused to you ... The pain I caused to my parents ... To the many people who have tried to love me ... I have caused so much pain who am I to cause all this hurt ? Who am I?

When I'm hurting

2011-03-20T11:35:00.001-07:00

When in sad .. I want you to be there for me to cheer me up ... To give me a hug .. A random hug from behind or hold me while I sleep .. I want comfort too :)

When I'm hurting

2011-03-18T20:54:00.001-07:00

When in sad .. I want you to be there for me to cheer me up ... To give me a hug .. A random hug from behind or hold me while I sleep .. I want comfort too :)

Marks

2011-03-18T02:38:00.001-07:00

Born afresh with marks of death

Without you

2011-03-17T04:29:00.001-07:00

Don't think I could be happy without you

2011-03-16T12:08:00.001-07:00

you finally found out about the little one following you ... haha oh well .. you should be fine i think ^^

:) learning experience

2011-03-16T03:54:00.001-07:00

I think I just found out why this has gone wrong so many times before :) but now I know :) we can dooo it

Wow ...

2011-03-14T10:28:00.001-07:00

After everything I've done ... Everything I've put myself through just for you ... The amount of time and money spent ... Sacrifices made... All this doesn't seem to matter because the moment you feel 'uncomfortable' you want to shut me out ? What the fuck do you think this is ? The world of bri and her joys? Not fucking everything ... Has to do with you, you don't get to just do whatever the fuck you want and expect everything to be ok.... No fucking self control .. No boundaries ... So much for never doing it again huh ? I gave you a second chance you threw it straight in my fucking face and lied to me about it ... So I gave you a third chance ... But hey when it gets to tough you can just shut it all out and run away right ? I mean hey ... There's billions of people out there ... You can always find new friends sure whatever ... If that's how you want to live your life then go right ahead ... Nobody can stop bri from doing what she wants right ? But at least remember ... That your family ... That is one thing you can never replace so treat them right ... No matter what happens they will always be your family don't ever forget that

The amount of wrong

2011-03-14T09:49:00.001-07:00

You tell me you don't want to have to be on par ? How the fuck are we on par .... Everything ive done is a hell of alot more then you have done

Intrigued ... Jaded... Confused

2011-03-12T15:03:00.001-08:00

You can't figure him out ... It's like a puzzle and that intrigues you ... You want to find out more ... You think you already know everything there is to know about me ... I can see it in the way you look at me ... So knowing so bored ... Oh but good god you have no idea ... You have made ideas in your head of who I am ... I don't know where these ideas have come from ... Maybe people put them in there by the things they say about me ... Oh yes ... And you have slowly jaded more and more towards me ... Everything I do now will piss you off ... The more I love you the less you want me ... You have no idea what to do ... One minute you want me ... One minute you know you shouldn't want me but oh you want me... Your just afraid ... You want that stability of a committed relationship for once ... When in actual fact stability is the one thing I offer best ... We could do whatever we wanted ... You could have all the opportunities in the world ... But maybe ... Seeing as the more I love you ... The more you push me away ... Maybe all I should do now is nothing ... Let you do what you want to your life ... Whether you fuck up your life ... Or if you do succeed ... Maybe I should just let you ... But oh how I wish ... Your word actually meant something ... And oh how I wish I wouldn't believe everything you say anymore ... But I can't help it ... It seems no matter how many times you break my trust I will continue to believe you ... What do you want ? Just tell me straight and simple ... Do you want me out of your life? If not ... Then try to at least make an effort ... Just like you said you would ... Just like those letters you wrote me...

Worried sick

2011-03-12T13:38:00.001-08:00

Yesterday ... I was so scared ... I ran around the entire area of serangoon and vivo and nobody knew where you were and nobody could contact you I eventually headed down to work ... And my hands were shaking ... Shaking so bad and I started to hyperventilate ... Yea ok I know kinda over the top but yea ... It happened haha

Who am I ?

2011-03-12T13:32:00.001-08:00

Who am I to get involved in other peoples business? Who am I to try and change your mind ? Who am I to try to help you ? Who am I to be the one that's always there for you ? Who ? Tyrone that's who ... The Tyrone that will never judge you... The Tyrone that will from time to time fuck up ... The imperfect Tyrone who is trying his best to be there for you ... The Tyrone that has caused you alot of pain ... The Tyrone that's trying to heal that pain ... The Tyrone who gets so worried about you that his hands shake ... The Tyrone who would destroy anyone who harms you ... But .... Have I become just an obligation ?

Trek

2011-03-12T01:38:00.001-08:00

Trekking all over serangoon and vivo ... Oh good god >< tonights going to be a busy night too

Oh fuck

2011-03-12T00:00:00.001-08:00

Oh good god ... I don't know where you are .... If you kill yourself I will
Never forgive myself ... I couldn't stop you ... Hell I didn't even know where to find you ... How can I call myself a man ... If I couldn't even save your life ...

Roaming

2011-03-11T23:35:00.001-08:00

Spent the past 2 hours looking for you ... I don't know where you are I went to bra's house and I still can't find you ... Please tell me where you are ...

The pain of this sleep

2011-03-11T21:21:00.002-08:00

the dreams are getting worse... oh i dont even get the comfort of sleep anymore... no i dont get the comfort of sleep

2011-03-11T21:21:00.001-08:00

do i really mean that little to you?

Meeeeoooow

2011-03-11T12:03:00.001-08:00

And now I am home and I shall hug that cat! Goodnight ... No more lucid dreams please

All the glamour

2011-03-11T04:47:00.001-08:00

The glitz the glamour ... Doesn't phase me any more I look around and all I see is empty faces all with their own problems it's a sad sad world ... Cruel and full of suffering people try their best ... Give it their all and yet ... They still fail ... And then there are the people who never have to try ... And they get whatever they want ... Its a sad world ... Because even the people who get what they want ... Too easily .. They are never happy DILEMMA haha

Maxout

2011-03-11T01:45:00.001-08:00

Poster boy for powerbalance at the max out water sports wakeboarding event :) mmmm I can't wait :)

Crowded empty spaces

2011-03-10T23:26:00.001-08:00

People all around me with loud crashing noise ... I don't hear any of it

The first day we met

2011-03-09T22:33:00.001-08:00

The first day we met .. It was raining after our movie ... And as we started to realize that we had an interest for each other the rain started to clear and we walked in it for a while .. Getting touched by the rain ... As if to signify that storm of my life will be calm again now that I had met you .. And then everytime something went wrong it seemed to rain where I was ... And then when we worked things out it would pass again ... Oh I love the rain but ... I don't want it to rain anymore ... Not now not ever .. Not in this way

Blissful sleep

2011-03-09T19:15:00.001-08:00

I'm having a recurring dream ... Your always there ... I open the door to my house ... And your there waiting for me after I finish work ... ( in the dream I'm some banker with a nice house) I get home to you smiling and you give me a big hug and kiss ... Then you start to walk upstairs and say you will wait for me there .. But when I walk up the stairs and onto our second floor you look at me and walk around a corner into this big room .. And when I get to this room your not there ... Your not there and that's when I wake up ... I've woken up in tears the past week.. The only day I didn't get that dream was Sunday and monday

oh so wrong

2011-03-09T06:13:00.000-08:00

this bed i lie in no longer feels right ... it feels oddly large ... to big for me.. there is something missing ... there is a place here .. that is empty oh so empty.. there is always a spot here .. waiting to be filled .. waiting to be filled by that right person .. until that happens .. it is oh so cold ... oh so empty oh so painful

found it :)

2011-03-09T05:28:00.000-08:00

i found the post that got deleted haha

sitting downstairs .. in your lobby .. ive got butterflies in my stomach... all day i just couldn't wait for school to end i kept checking my phone and the clock and oh my god im so excited to see your face haha :) im so madly in love ive got your black shirt here and your going to wear it later and i look forward to it :) your trademark black shirt haha im kinda nervous too .. like a first date ... i dont know what to say when i see you ... but ill probably just end up not saying anything and smiling like an idiot xD oh wells :) hope you wont mind ^_^ oh my god i cant wait to give you a big big big hug ^^ oh im already smiling mmhmm already smiling maccaroons ... baby visiting .. a swim i cant wait ! ^_^ oh oh oh oh we can do this ^^ we can be so happy together we could ~ thats where the blogging got interupted by a call ~ and if i remember correctly i was going to say conquer the world and that time i didn't mean it the way i meant it a long time ago .. i meant conquer the world with love ... we could be perfect together oh yes we could :)

Ticking bomb

2011-03-08T23:16:00.001-08:00

Oh it's like a guilty pleasure ... The guilty pleasures of my heart and yours

One sided

2011-03-08T21:04:00.001-08:00

Having one sided conversations with the social networking sites that have become the only friend I have ... I wont do it anymore it's wierd and stranger

Mindless

2011-03-08T21:01:00.001-08:00

I walk around school, people saying I look a little pale ... People asking what's wrong ... I feel I'm not here ... Just a shell walking from place to place ... Empty as empty can be ... Occasionally I'll talk or laugh maybe crack a joke if your lucky but ... It's not really me ... School sucks more then ever before ... Or is it just me?

Sitting

2011-03-08T20:46:00.001-08:00

Sitting in the toilet cubicles ... Tryin to hold it together ... My fists are bruised my eyes are sore ... And my teachers all hate me ... But its ok ... These eyes have seen ... They are never afraid ... They are never afraid.... Oh god but I am so afraid

Washed up

2011-03-08T15:08:00.001-08:00

I've been washed up .. Chewed up and spat out ... Old news ... There's someone else in your heart now ... You've taken me ... And now you've put me back .. To face this world alone oh this old cold world.. With peoples happy smiles and laughing eyes seemingly mocking me for all the pain I feel ... Don't take me for granted ... Because ... It hurts and my head tells me that I shouldn't be so easily accessible ... And I should make it harder to see me .. Make you miss me and eventually love me once more ... But I can't do that ... I Won't cause you pain .. Even if that means I won't have you to call as my own... I won't cause you pain ... I never will not again ... Not since ive put you through so much pain ... I won't make you do anything you don't want to ... Your choices are yours to make ... But like you once said to me ... Be sure as hell about your choices.... I'll be there when you need me.. Even though you never were.

Miss me

2011-03-08T08:37:00.003-08:00

One day ... When you miss me .. If you miss me just come back ... Just come back I'll be waiting.

Oh so cold

2011-03-08T08:37:00.001-08:00

It started in a pool it seems it ends at a pool too ... Oh the water was so warm but I felt so cold ... Oh so cold ...

:)

2011-03-08T01:34:00.001-08:00

Seeing you play with that baby :) makes me so happy

2011-03-07T07:41:00.001-08:00

i dont care about your perception of me ... maybe you think all i do is fuck chicks ... but seriously mate? i have a heart too believe it or not .. and yes i have given it to bri and yes right now things might not be perfect ... but im happy to just see her smile and i go to sleep happy. the best days ive had so far .. have been with her ... so no ... i dont 'just want to have sex with her' i am madly in love... call me crazy ... hell .. dont even be my friend

Are you sure?

2011-03-07T07:20:00.001-08:00

... The pain you've felt has been getting worse and worse the more you try ... The cause and effect is obvious but you don't see it .. But it's ok because I'm still waiting .. And I'll wait till the day you realize what went wrong ... Today I go to bed .. Not feeling the regular pain ... But feeling your pain ... And wishing I could take it all away wishing you would come back into the safety of my love... Because I'll keep you safe no matter what! I will wrap you in the safe blanket of love ... Please stop hurting ... Please feel no more pain :( I miss your smiles and your sparkling eyes ... I miss it all ... I'll make it come back ... I promise I'll make you safe .. And happier then anyone ever will

2011-03-07T05:55:00.001-08:00

When it seems
Like the world around you's breaking
And it feels
Like there's no one else around you
And it's quiet
There's a silence in the darkness
And it sounds
Like the carnival is over

As you walk
In the crowded empty spaces
And you stare
At the emptiness around you
You wanna go
To the city and the bright lights
Get away
From the sinners that surround you

Cause I will be there
And you will be there
We'll find each other in the dark
And you will see
And I'll see you too
Cause we'll be together in the dark

Cause if it's coming for you
Then it's coming for me
Cause I will be there
Cause we need each other in the dark
And if it terrifies you
Then it terrifies me
Cause I will be there
So we've got each other in the dark

As I look into the sky
There's sparks bright as ice
You want me to take you over there
I want you to stay with me
Cuz you're not the only one
The only one

No, no
Don't worry
You're not the only one

Cause if it's coming for you
Then it's coming for me
But I will be there
Cuz we need each other in the dark

Cause if it's coming for you
Then it's coming for me
But I will be there
Cuz we need each other in the dark
And if it's panicking you
Then it's panicking me
But I will be there
So we've got each other in the dark

In the dark
In the dark
We'll need each other in the dark

In the dark
In the dark
We'll hold each other in the dark

Now we're saved together in the dark

Cause we've got each other in the dark

Walking in a dream

2011-03-07T02:09:00.001-08:00

It's what I do ... Everything just becomes a routine ... I'm not in my own head when I'm at school I'm not in my own head when I'm at home .. The only time I'm actually not spacing out ... Is when it's worth being in my own head :)

The happiness we share

2011-03-06T15:07:00.001-08:00

We wake up .. With sad eyes and heavy hearts .. We walk around thinking .. What are we supposed to do now? When we are apart it seems that things start to crash around us .. But when we are together the happiness we share is like no other. I still believe if this had not happened... Or stopped happening we would be so much happier. Together we could be the happiest people in the world. We love each other. We could do it.

2011-03-06T06:18:00.000-08:00

tonight will be the first night in a long time that i will go to sleep happy... it just sucks that your having such a hard time :( but it will all be better soon :)

Ion orchard

2011-03-05T21:26:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting here in orchard on a little coach next to a young couple with a baby ... They look so happy ... But how long will it last ?

2011-03-05T20:41:00.001-08:00

The pain is never far from sight.. I can always feel it no matter what I'm doing.. The only times where I don't hurt is when your in my arms or I am asleep .. But the pain is there every-night as I prepare for bed.. I get under the covers without your warmth... And I think about how much I miss you and wish you were there... But no it's ok ... I can take the pain ... I've admitted that I do feel this pain ... But I know your hurting too .. And all I can do is to not add my pain to yours and hope that one day when all is said and done you will end up back in my arms.. Just like it used to be

2011-03-05T09:02:00.000-08:00

i think that the first time... that was a mistake and was found to be shameful so it was hidden ... and the longer it was hidden the more corroded everything else became... and by corroding everything else .. there was more room for other things ... and the mistake had more room ... to grow ... and since then the mistake has started to take up more and more space and has grown to no longer be a mistake ... but has become a choice .. and everything else is just slowly being pushed from the conscience.

There is no say to be had in this .. not by anyone because it is done and irreversible by everyone but the maker of the mistake

2011-02-23T06:55:00.001-08:00

this is what we call love :) when you are loved you can do anything in creation when you are loved you can do anything in creation when you are loved theres no need at all to understand whats happening because everything happens within you and even men can turn themselves into wind :)

2011-02-23T06:54:00.000-08:00

if a person is living out his destiny he knows everything he needs to know ... theres only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve ... and that is the fear of failure

2011-02-23T06:53:00.001-08:00

one of the most basic of lifes lessons.... when you possess a great treasures within you ... and you try to tell others of them ... seldom do people believe you

2011-02-23T06:52:00.000-08:00

i have tried to resist the agents of change... yet they still haunt me ... forcing me to comply ... the inevitability of this makes me sucumb and in doing so i change myself ........ i become change

2011-02-23T06:49:00.001-08:00

your heart is always trying to tell you things ... and it told me something today
it told me it was happy it said "even though i complain sometimes ... its just because im a human heart ... and peoples hearts are that way ... people are afraid to pursue their most important dreams because they feel they dont deserve them or that they will be unable to achieve them.... we their hearts become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever or of moments that could have been good but weren't or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands because when these things happen we suffer terribly"

2011-02-23T06:45:00.000-08:00

At that moment it seemed to him that time stood still and the soul of the world surged within him. when he looked into her dark eyes with her hair whipping in the wind ... and he saw that her lips were poised between a laugh and silence. he learned the most important language the world spoke... it was love ... something older then humanity more ancient then the world...

2011-02-23T06:43:00.001-08:00

Destiny ... it is what you have always wanted to accomplish. everyone when they are young knows what their destiny is. At that point of their lives everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives..... but as time passes a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for the to realise their destiny.

2011-02-23T06:41:00.000-08:00

The worlds greatest lie is that... at a certain point in our lives..... we lose control of whats happening to us and our lives become controlled by fate. That is the worlds biggest lie

2011-02-22T10:41:00.000-08:00

sometimes all you can do is let it engulf you. because at some point you become powerless to fight it, it becomes more immense then you can be. it becomes so intense that not even the most hardened can fight it it feels like there is a building crumbling around you and you have to hold it up alone. you try your best not to let it smother you but the more you fight it the stronger it gets and it doesn't stop getting stronger. Then there comes a point where it just breaks through all your shields and walls and the only thing you feel is pain and a desperate agony. The only thing you can think of is you want it to stop, to all go away because eventually it is such pain that your body itself starts to crumble and you lose control and it is no longer your own body to control as it writhes and thrashes against what you feel because no its not going to end and no there is nothing you can do about it. The moment of complete and utter hopelessness where all you can ask is why ? and you no longer have the strength to stand up you no longer have the strength to move or to eat ... you just ... can no longer do it. That is the pain of a lost love ... a love so lost that you can no longer find it in the dark. and the only thing you can do is give up and hope you will heal.

but you never will... never not fully ... the wounds will be stitched shut and will seal themselves over time ... but there will always be the scar an ugly truth about yourself that you will carry with you for the rest of your life ... now i know what it means to love .... to truly love and have it all break down before your eyes.

Jaded completely

2011-02-22T08:07:00.000-08:00

new beginnings :) new starts :) new people :) everything shall be new because new is good old is ...well old XD and see ... things happen everyday that people dont like ... and will never like but hey such is life and now i feel strangely liberated and ive realised only now that you really got to look at the big picture to understand and everything is all ok again :) except school.... school can suck my dick :l hahaha but hey thats nothing new XD time to go out and be a happy chappy :D

2011-02-19T08:59:00.000-08:00

There always comes a time when you realise that no ... life's not easy! but thats a good thing ... if life were easy we wouldn't appreciate it ... if a relationship was always good we wouldn't care about it whereas ... if your feeling down in the dumps ... or something is going wrong with your loved ones it just means that when you are happy again and things start to look up with those you hold dear you will treasure it more .. and you wont throw it all away like nobodies business a person who's opinion i hold highly once said... if there is a girl worth fighting for you should fight for it as much as it might hurt at first you keep on fighting because if you dont fight for it ... your not worthy of her anyway. So on that note ... to anyone whos reading this ... to the followers i have left ... if you are wondering ... whether or not to keep on trying ... in no matter what you are doing .. be it with your family your relationship or friendships or just life in general .. never give up because the harder it is to get something the better the rewards are :)

Sincerely
Tyrone Thomas Williams

2011-02-19T06:12:00.001-08:00

you sit and you wonder ... what now ?

2011-02-18T12:26:00.000-08:00

you know, i often wonder what is going on? if maybe i ask for too much? if im too demanding maybe its not normal to meet for long periods of time ? but then again i dont think so because im not a high maintenance guy .. never have been never will. i just need a day here and there.. maybe a surprise visit or a little note to show you care ... because having a strong imagination and very high perceptive skills i start to wonder in your absence i wonder about everything ... i wonder about the world .. i wonder about human nature ... i wonder about how you feel about me i wonder if your fading away ... i hope your not .. but its likely you are and you say your not but ... although you might not be fading away .. you are also drawing nearer to someone else ... all i ask from people is to give me time ... because its hard to keep feelings for someone if your never with them feelings ebb and fade when there is nothing to fuel it ... the fuel of your hand on mine, the rush of your breath against my ear the slow slither of my hand through your hair and the burning warmth of your back against my chest... the contagious laughter that we share ... the freezing cold of the nights without you and i wonder .. are you willing to try ? are you willing to really make an effort ... that is what i ask

2011-02-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

today seems like an appropriate day to start blogging again :) ~i was never in a relationship for a long time ... afraid to give my heart to anyone ... because if you keep your heart locked in your chest noone can hurt it again... but then i did .. i decided to give it away .. one more time because she wont hurt it the same as before ... no it will be different but it seems everyones the same .. everyone will do the same things to you and now it goes back in the pit as an empty shell of what i started this life with

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