I guess it's my turn to feel like you don't care anymore. I know I made you promise once upon a time that you would leave me as soon as you didn't love me anymore. But somehow I think you just can't bring yourself to do it. Maybe it's just me over thinking things. But I don't know... It sure feels like you don't care anymore >.<
The only time I don't have to worry about anything is when I'm asleep.
fuck you for overreacting, fuck you for not trying to understand, fuck you for not trying to talk about it.. FUCK YOU i try so fucking hard for you.. even when you are in the wrong I APOLOGIZE when the one who should be apologizing is YOU
I'm Soo happy :)
Eh that post the darkness doesn't apply anymore .. Not after two nights ago :) it was supposed to be posted like a week ago >< don't know why it came out today haha
I feel so alone .. Like theres nobody I can talk to .. I don't know if i even have any readers anymore or if anybody cares. But I feel so lost .. I just had dinner with my parents and grandparents who I haven't seen for ages and I am normally so happy when they are in town. But today all the way throughout the dinner I could barely manage to smile at the jokes and banter. I had to hold back the tears that were trying to fight their way through .. And then my step dad had to be a dick about everything again and I was trying so fucking hard just to not cry at the table .. I couldn't take it eventually and had to excuse myself :/ had a cigarette and cried in that fucking alleyway and a cat came up to me and even it didn't want to hang around :'(
Well ... I finally found someone I can see my future with :)