Thursday, May 31, 2012

Out of time

I feel an impending doom. After ns is done I'll be 20. Then I'll be severely under educated and skilled. I won't have the years of being stupid and having fun like all my other mates are having now. What's the next step? I'll have to save up to pay for my education, that will take time. Then I will have to go to school.. Once that is over I'll have to go get a proper job ... And my years of being a stupid teenager are all gone .. Even my early twenties ... WHAT DO I DO !? I need to get out of here ! I need to get home :(

outclassed
11:08 PM

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Back to basics

Since a very young age, I've been taught manners and respect. I sometimes wonder if it's too much to hope that others have been as well. I don't ask for much, just the basic human respect people should have for each other. It doesn't matter your status or position, just show some respect you know? It's not so fucking hard.

outclassed
4:23 AM

Monday, May 21, 2012

Answers

What do you do when you feel like you have nobody to talk to? What do you do when your general mood seems to just be .. Down? When even during times of enjoyment, you suddenly feel like you just want to go home and get under the covers. I smile and laugh one moment.. The next I feel a grip around my throat and I don't understand why. I seem to be lonely, I seem to need somebody to hold me. I've never had that... Not even as a kid :(

outclassed
6:53 AM

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Faulty

Somethings wrong with me.

outclassed
6:56 AM

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Like glue

Stick to your fucking guns mate .. If you choose to do something do it all the way! Don't start doubting yourself at every fucking corner! What's wrong with you retard?

outclassed
3:04 PM

Misconstrued

I start to wonder, how deep have I fallen? I see these things happening all over the world, and I think I understand. Some label me as a genius, others call me stupid. I read people really easily, then I read them all wrong. With different words come multiple meanings and reasons. Acting fast and smiling with that cold and blank expression. Who are we ? What are we ? Where do we go? Tell me the answers, there's no book on life! Who's to say what we can or can't do ? God? Our parents? Teachers or our friends ? Who has the best judgement ? Sometimes you realize that maybe its not all what you believe in anymore .. Not about what you think is right. How are you to know if somebodies actions are true to their meaning?

outclassed
1:14 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Whacked

Shit is whack .. People say all this shit to you ... But it don't mean crap. It's always full of shit. They say they got your back.. But hey the only one who really knows they got your back .. Is yourself who's going to be there for you when you have nothing left ? Tell me ... When they can gain something from it they will help you.. But not if you have nothing to return ... They say friendship is important ... But are they there for your company ? Or what you got ... Tell me that

outclassed
11:54 AM

Alone

There's hundreds of people around. Shouting and screaming your name! All having so much fun, drinking till they drop. They shout and scream your name, loving you till the day you die. Yet alone you are, so alone. These crowded empty spaces leave you in a daze. With no idea where your going or why, you hope. You hope for something to pull you in. Something to save your soul, where are we going, where is everyone going ? To a death we walk, to a lifetime we stand. Save our souls

outclassed
11:54 AM