I feel so alone .. Like theres nobody I can talk to .. I don't know if i even have any readers anymore or if anybody cares. But I feel so lost .. I just had dinner with my parents and grandparents who I haven't seen for ages and I am normally so happy when they are in town. But today all the way throughout the dinner I could barely manage to smile at the jokes and banter. I had to hold back the tears that were trying to fight their way through .. And then my step dad had to be a dick about everything again and I was trying so fucking hard just to not cry at the table .. I couldn't take it eventually and had to excuse myself :/ had a cigarette and cried in that fucking alleyway and a cat came up to me and even it didn't want to hang around :'(

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