hey guys.... high school is dramatic aye? fuck.. ah wells... i hope those who were involved directly overcome this and find the strength to carry on :)
12:15 AM
Friday, October 31, 2008
12:15 AM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
hey guys...if you are ever told something about someone ... and it really pisses you off.. please... for your sake and your friendships sake can you confront the person about it... as quite often it is a misunderstanding/lie it risks ending a friendship or really hurting other people... and another thing dont spread rumours... whether its true or fake...anyway ... i drew.. another heart... this time it was just a copy of a tribal design for a heart so... i dont know the possible meaning to it.. it could just mean a complicated love for someone... or the someone just wanted to draw something cool xD
3:52 AM
Monday, October 27, 2008
today i drew another tattoo ... this one had a nice big round-ish heart with a curved bottem half and it also had wings that spread out really far these wings were more developed and less ... hmm... messy? xD these ones also signifies a soaring heart... across the centre of the heart is a banner that starts at the top right covering a small portion of the wing and ended at the bottem left not covering anything in the middle of the banner i have yet to write something but... it has to be a relatively long word/name any suggestions? it has to be meaningful to someone or something ^.^
12:44 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
haha im sooo in love with tattoo's i dont want one... well maybe i do somewhere deep inside me.. but... i LOVE making them lately ive been experimenting with heart tattoo's most often with wings or arrows through them.. my latest has a simple heart with wings folded inwards towards it sort of like hugging the heart symbolises a power protecting the heart from pain and flying to heights previously unknown to the heart :) i like it haha ^_^ i also had this one from a long time ago.. a really perfect heart perfectly symetrical (i know cuz i measured xD) with an arrow through it though it seems impossible as the hole is only big enough for the shaft and the head of the arrow is massive and it is a 3 feathered arrow the hole through the heart represents fast healing as it has already healed from the arrow the 3 feathers symbolise hope, desire and need the heart symbolises love and the arrow head symbolises pain ^_^ i wish i could show you guys but.... i dont have anything to take pictures of it with T.T
~signing off~ Ty
12:40 AM
Friday, October 24, 2008
The hardest things about unrequited love are not that I can't hold you in my arms, that I will never know the taste of your lips, that I can't make love to you. Those things can be difficult, but they aren't the hardest things. It's being unable to send you the love letters, being unable to brush that lock of hair back from your face, and to smile at your beauty as I do it. It is being unable to do all of the infinitesimal things that love requests me to do that really drives me mad. Love is like that. It desires, of it's own accord, to be expressed in some form. It is a constant force, driving my actions, telling me to reach out and just touch you, only for an instant, just the slightest brush of my fingertips against your face. Sometimes I think the endless bliss of such a thing would be enough to stop my heart. And what a sublime way it would be to go. Love moves all on its own. It requires no encouragement and no motivation. It is as if some sort of intricate and beautifully delicate perpetual motion machine has been set loose inside of me. Only you could do this. I cannot stop it and I cannot let it run free. It runs and runs, and I wonder what it would sound like if it were a real motor turning within me. An exquisite sweet hum, and perhaps a sound like wind chimes on a summer afternoon. Still, the actions which it desires must be held in check. To use a silly metaphor that only a girl as wonderful as you would appreciate, I have to hold my foot on the clutch all day long.
It's all worth it though. I still get to write the love letters, even if I can't send them. And I get to see that lock of hair fall down across your face, even if I can't touch it. Perhaps once in a great while you might accidentally brush against me with your hand, and even if it does not stop my heart, please do not be surprised when I stumble in mid-step because my knees have given way, and my voice falters as I try to explain the simple workings of a distributor cap. Only you could do this, and I would only ever want you to be the one who led me to such a state.
10:58 PM
There is no shame in hurting because you feel deeply. If you only love those who love you you will never feel any pain--pain is unrequited love--pain makes you grow, it makes you strong.
Focus on others; as you spend time getting to know others you will love them. You cannot help it. People are amazing. However, the minute you begin focusing on yourself you will be miserable. You will hate yourself: people are not perfect. Do not be ashamed to love--and hurt. With the love, comes pain, but "you learn, my God, you learn."
10:58 PM
is when you love in vain.
unrequited love is when you give your heart freely, but it is unwanted.
Unrequited Love is when your professed or pro-offered love is untaken.
Unrequited Love is when you hopelessly devote your full attention on that special someone and it goes unnoticed.
Unrequited Love is when you feel as if you will die without that special someone, yet that special someone would not even move a muscle or blink an eye if you were to die.
it is very painful haha :S but yea... lifes alright if you look past this, i just wish i never have to meet someone as painful as this... but yea.. i think ill start to actually do work to get my mind off things... just to not think about this... yea.. its a good plan ~ to read the part above this main body try highlighting it its there but.. cant change the colour for some reason
~dont fall into the void~ Ty signs off once again
8:35 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
hey guys who do you think would win naruto or ichigo in a 1 on 1 fight with a choice of 2 companions? ^.^ anyways .. i think the bleach storyline is better but... the whole kyuubi thing is pretty cool i like the art ^_^ but yea.. i think i will start to read some more shoujo ... any suggestions? :O ^.^ sorry for not posting for ages BTW =]
2:18 AM
Saturday, October 11, 2008
In the beginning, I tried to warn you
You play with fire, its gonna burn you
And here we are now, in the same situation,
You never listen, I never listen
Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape
It's got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey
Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?
Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been hurt by somebody before
You can change but you will always come back for more
Its a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don't try to fight it, victims of love
You can't decide it, victims of love, victims of love
Now you've back tracked
You're running away cause it just happened again and you don't want it to end
Trying your best to not let yourself go cold, so cold.
Now you think about the things you thought you wanted to say
But when you open up your mouth it don't come out that way
Are you really gonna throw your heart away?
Everybody's hurt somebody before
Everybody's been hurt by somebody before
You can change but you will always come back for more
Its a game and we are all just victims of love.
Don't try to fight it, victims of love
You can't decide it, victims of love, victims of love
You never listen, I never listen
Now I am thinking of a way that I can make an escape
It's got me caught up in a web and my hearts the prey
Do you really wanna throw your heart away, away, away?
12:12 AM
Monday, October 6, 2008
hey all it was jaz's birthday party yesterday so wish her a happy belated birthday in my cbox :D or if you can personally of course for people in singapore you will ave to do with cbox xD but anyways... the party was fun.. doing random shit for ages then spin the bottle, xbox, music and playing with water gems xD then me josh and texas went stickering! :D so fun! remember my ipod the bmw sticker? yea i got more :D but we only got 5 after 1 1/2 hours of looking ZZ gayness T.T
anyway as you can see my blog-needyness died because im abit preoccupied.... thinking too much xD but anyways... i wrote this nice poem... i still cant find it tho...
~the blue cloth~
3:33 AM
Friday, October 3, 2008
hey all i am finnaly back home... AND! i have my comp! WOOHOO lifes not so bad after all.. lolol well people in singapore halfway through your exams.... here is some motivational speaking from tyrone your best friend from australia.. JIAYOU fight on my friends 4 papers over dont know how many more but good luck! i hope you all do well and have great lives :D (saturday)
10:01 PM