Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Falling into the black

I can feel myself falling and falling and I don't know when it will stop.. I can see myself feel myself unraveling .. Tearing at the seems under the pressure .. I don't know where it will end or how I will be able to stand up to it ..! But I know I have to try, or its all going to end .. I think about it every night I really just don't know where to go or what to do or who to speak to .. I just gotta keep on smiling .. And smiling but nobody knows .. They can't see it ! They don't want to see it ! Of all things? They just expect me to take It all and just keep on smiling .. I don't know what it is but I'm a person too I have my low points but they don't let me have them! I gotta be this I gotta be that .. But they don't get it !! I can't be that shit I can't do it!!

outclassed
1:39 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Insanity

I'm being driven to it.. Grumpy people surround me .. Day after day. IM GOING TO END UP GRUMPY TOO BECAUSE OF THEM. I mean didn't your fucking parents teach you any fucking manners

outclassed
2:25 AM

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Back in black

So here's me back to blogging again after a long hiatus ! For all of you who don't know I'm in national service now ... AND BALD took a little while to cope but it's ok I'm getting used to the hair! Other then that I'm just finding it a little hard to stay motivated these days . The constant drain of waking up really early just to go to CDA ( civil defense academy) and do basically fuck all.. I'll admit it's getting to me. To all those who actually bother to read this well .. Maybe you are having a slightly better time :)

outclassed
6:56 AM